Destiny

15 April 2007 @ 04:51 pm

And the Lae breaks character for this special meme.

[I blame my flist. Stuff in bold are things that Roxas has done. Italics are my commentary.]

My Bar Tab Is. . . $465
Read the "offense" and if you've done it, you owe that fine. Then add up your total fine and title your entry "My Bar Tab Is..." You don't have to confess your answers, just the amount of your fine.

( El Tab )

Tags: ooc

How I'm feeling::

cheerful

Poke the blond?

05 March 2007 @ 03:13 pm

A week of annoyances.

I know I said I’d keep a reign on my temper…but it looks like that’s not going to happen.

Between Willow (the crazy psycho-bitch that she is), and Ed (who can go die for all I care), I’ve been in three fights in just about as many days.

There’s a new guy, named Yazzy or something. He looks a lot like Riku, which isn’t a point in his favor. Not at all.

I also met a friend of Vash’s named Nick Wolfwood (weird name). He’s not bad, for a Priest. He, Vash and I were swamped by Neoshadows on my patio last night, so I disposed of them. A delightful little discussion followed, and I’m quite sure that Vash, at least, is annoyed with me.

It might be that fact that I mentioned the whole “literally have no heart, destroyed worlds, killed millions” thing. But they did ask. And it’s the truth. They expect me to be selfless, and regret it.

I don’t do regrets.

Tags: journal, rant, update

Currently:: my room.

How I'm feeling::

crushed

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18 February 2007 @ 07:01 pm

What have I gotten myself into? [A series of interludes]

Everything is so fucked up.

Rikku is pregnant. With Demyx’s kids. Twins, actually. A boy and a girl. I spent a lot of time brewing potions she’d need, and got rid of my fox problems. Though I think the one went away on his own. Rikku practically almost accused me of breaking Naruto’s heart. When did I ever even hint that a) I’d fall for him (because I won’t) or b) that I honestly would alter myself for him?

To change myself for him…would be pointless. Besides, I keep my thoughts and emotions close, for the most part, and I prefer that. It takes a long time to get my trust. Naminé has it. Demyx has it. Rikku might, in time. I like her as a friend. But to add another weakness…another trusted person…

**************

Naminé is dating now. The experiment. I have to say, I approve. He’s devoted to her, utterly. And much better than that swine Riku. A new person, Daisuke (who has an interesting secret) seems to have slight interest in her. Since Shiru (Naminé named him…he’s her pet?) seems to be very attached, I suppose he’ll look into it for me.

But apparently, he killed or attempted to kill VI once. Demyx was not amused. In fact, he was rather homicidal. I held him back (mostly a stop) and told him to get to my sister (mostly because she needs to be protect. Damn zombies) and then teleported to them once Demyx started to run to their room. They escaped, Demyx and I had…words.

Fuck.

**************

Naminé erased his and Gojyo’s memories. I have my best friend back. And…then I told him.

Not…not that I might have…’feelings’. Just that I had my sister mess with his memories causing him moderate pain.

At least he wasn’t mad…

***************

Things get more confusing. Speaking of Demyx, we both somehow got drugged by an elixir (I meant to grab a pain potion and missed) and well…we had sex.

Don’t get me wrong; I’m NOT one to sleep around for fun. If I do, it’s for some reason, whether it be annoyance, drunk and aroused (it was ONCE), or actual attraction. And I’m thinking it might be the last one. It’s almost easier to date him (for we are, apparently) since I already trust him, (he’s rather good in bed) and he gets me. And he’s fine with it. Fuck. I sound like a girl.

*****************

I…I think I like him. In that ‘possibly couple’ sense.

We had sex. Again. Multiple times even. And the fragments…I think I can feel them moving. Something that…is new to me.

No one can ever read this journal.

*****************

We’re dating now.

I’m dating the father of Rikku’s children, who will practically be my niece and nephew anyway.

Not to mention that my twin is dating the pet project of numbers IV and VI.

Haku is after Rikku, Rikku can’t live without sexual gratification, and things are getting rather confusing.

And I…am in a dress.

Damn computers.

Tags: journal, rant, update

Currently:: My Patio.

How I'm feeling::

complacent

Poke the blond?

28 January 2007 @ 02:25 pm

And life gets weirder.

Let's see.

Rikku and Demyx think that they're married.
Naruto thinks that he's a pirate.
Riku is an asshole.
I cannot tell Naminé what happened.
Certain people actually give a shit when I'm hurt. I should look into better ways of hiding stuff. Specifically bruises, lacerations, and smells.
Speaking of, foxes are very possessive. Should warn Rikku, if she's ever sane again.
Boss has gone off the deep end, also. Pirate Captian. Yeesh.
Being in the body of current bedmate is very uncomfortable.
Naruto really, really likes Sasuke. Enough to cheat on Rikku ~~with someone he shouldn't have. I mean, really. Not my...~~

The rest of the page is torn away .

Tags: journal

Currently:: The Kitchen

How I'm feeling::

crappy

Poke the blond?

20 January 2007 @ 02:00 pm

.....

Looks like things are working out.

...now, to make sure everything goes to plan.

If I only knew what this rune on my finger did. And I have /earings/ now. Damn Foxes.

Tags: journal, plans

Currently:: My Room, as always.

How I'm feeling::

contemplative

Poke the blond?

15 January 2007 @ 11:33 am

.....

I know I haven't written in a while-it's a bit of a long story.

In fact, I'll just jot in down in list form, to be quicker.

I:

got turned into a monkey
am developing a conscious
got attacked by Naruto
got lectured by Naruto
got shrunk to one foot high
fixed it, but lost a good amount of magic I ever had.
ended up speaking French for an hour (I blame hanging out in other worlds for this one, and potions)
made a new friend in Rikku.
might not kill Naruto after all.
will get Bob dead, eventually (damn thing nearly KILLED me again)
will not rant in forests anymore-ever, ever again.

And, I will enjoy using my boss' current physical state for blackmail. Heh.

Tags: journal, rant

Currently:: The Forest

Poke the blond?

28 December 2006 @ 07:26 pm

.....

Life has been really interesting lately.

I've cut all ties with VIII. I just...I can't deal with it right now. Eventually, maybe. But for now...

There's a lovely distraction in The Youko Kurama. A very lovely distraction indeed. And I have my friends, and figuring out how to get home, despite (or maybe because of) that person's intentions.

I mean...I understand why. I get it.

It's just...is it so wrong to want to be asked? To have a say in what happens to me? To have a choice? Everything says no, but that's the real reason I refused him.

All I've ever wanted was a choice.

Tags: journal

Currently:: My Place

How I'm feeling::

pensive

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18 December 2006 @ 09:37 pm

.....

I...I am so confused. And divided...

....Demy?

Tags: journal, private log

Currently:: Pool Room

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16 December 2006 @ 01:57 pm

.....

I...am so lost.

I know where I am, and who I am, but the rest is just...gone.

Sometimes I feel like part of me is locked away, but that's crazy. Can't be right.

I need to find IX. He'll tell me what is going on.

Or DiZ. Our plans must come to pass, after all.

Tags: log, plans

Currently:: ?

How I'm feeling::

cranky

Poke the blond?

13 December 2006 @ 12:22 am

.....

Why does everyone keep saying that I'm sleeping with Axel?

I'm STRAIGHT! He's just stalking me.

Tags: journal

Currently:: Outside of the mansion.

How I'm feeling::

cranky

Poke the blond?

08 December 2006 @ 10:53 pm

Life Gets Weirder,

Well, I was minding my own business (it happens from time to time) when this guy come up to me asking if I've seen a walking suit of armor.

Yes, you heard that right. I laughed too.

Well, it turns out that this kid's named Ed, and the armor contains his brother's spirit or something. The guy was a real asshole. In fact, it reminded me of you Axel. Except this asshole was a) shorter than me and b) blond. Nasty temper. Call him short sometime. See what happens. It's kinda cute.

The weird thing is, the kid keeps rambling on about alchemy and how magic isn't real.

I can almost agree with Demy's "Am I gonna hav'ta choke a bitch now?" phrase.

Almost.

Tags: journal

Currently:: Outside of the mansion.

How I'm feeling::

cynical

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06 December 2006 @ 05:29 pm

How many times...

...can you almost die in one day? I hit three. Go me.

Well, I went and bought that potion, but it didn't help much. So, bored, I figured I'd explore a little more. In hindsight that seems really dumb, but I blame it on bloodloss.

So, I get to the back alley, and I take a little break. Next thing I know I'm on the ground, and Axel's leaning over me like he hit me with a large moving object on accident. Or something.

By then, my wounds were bleeding even more, so he took me into the spot to sit down. Then...things get fuzzy. He asked me a few things, but then all I remember was it getting dark, and voices. Apparently, I almost bled out. Thank god for hi-potions, or else I'd be nothing.

So, we're heading back to Diz's and guess who we run into? Demy and Gojyo. I was right...Axel was not pleased. Axel ended up getting himself and Demy out of the way so I could fry the fucker. (Oh the cleverness of me). The nex thing I remember was waking up in Naminé's room. I think I actually feel asleep. Weird.

Axel was being pissy, so I went for a walk. I met up with this new guy named Reno. Who is a redhead. And luckily,not that much taller than me. I took him back to the mansion, we made...'small talk'. I was highly amused.

And then...Axel started singing. Suicide looks better every day.

Tags: journal

Currently:: Outside of the mansion.

How I'm feeling::

cranky

What I'm hearing:: Axel. Singing. IT BURNS.

Poke the blond?

05 December 2006 @ 08:37 pm

Day Two,

...and I'm still annoyed. But, I digress.

When I last posted, I ended with the pouring of cold liquid on VIII, yes?

Well, he chased me into the library, and I hid behind Demy. He hear each of our sides (I lied, and I'm horrible at it too) they figured out that Axel was right and so with the cry of my motto, "I admit nothing, deny everything and" (in this case, run) I ran for the lab. Got tackled by Axel and rolled down a whole bunch of stairs. Ow. Then got pinned and squished by Axel. More ow. Then tackled in the empty lab.

I let him sleep and went to explore, and talked with Gojyo, who isn't too bad. Went to wake Axel up, the usual, and a rather morose ending, for me. But then again...

We (being Demy, Gojyo, Axel, Riku and I) went through the portal I found in the lab. It led to a place Rinoa called 'Suna'. After being scared out of my wits (you HAD to bring up the bodies, eh Axel?) I ditched the boyfriend to explore. I came upon Gojyo and Demy, hung out for a while. Fought with Gojyo (he's an ASSHOLE) and went to find Demy, who had gotten lost. Now, whether he did it on purpose or not, he kept me down there long enough that I started to swallow water. He, being Gojyo. Who tripped me, and apparently knocked me unconscious and gave me a rather deep (and bloody) head wound. Axel...will not be pleased.

So, Demy and I got back to the castle, found the pool, and relaxed. Well...he did. I sat and wrote this in the library, but I think that I'm gonna go buy a potion for my head. It won't stop...bleeding.

Tags: journal

Currently:: Library, DiZ's House

How I'm feeling::

in pain.

What I'm hearing:: Demy's singing. It's loud.

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